What does it mean it doesn't mean anything to me?

Yesterday new shrink asked me more questions about feelings, reactions, patterns and so many made no sense at all. Again like so many things are without sense or meaning. But! Apparently that's just me. And I wonder if that has always been that way or if somewhere along the line it got broken.
It took me ages to figure out how those questions were meant and what I had to answer to make it understandable. Do I fear meeting new people? Yes? Do I fear new situations? Yes? Does that hinder me? Uhm what? I don't know how it is to not be scared. I have the distinction between amounts of fear. And sometimes I just can't raise the energy or will to go places. Do I plan everything or am I impulsive? Uhm... can you like not plan things? Can you like not think about consequences? Do I have trouble talking to people? Or looking at them while talking? Or problems understanding them? Now? Yes. Normally? No? I think. Answering questions caused pain. Looking directly at people caused pain. Misunderstanding caused pain. Understanding caused pain. Yes, no, yes, how do I know if that is my normality or a made normality? Did I have friends my own age? Or rather younger or older than me? Waa? There were by my mother accepted and approved children I could and sometimes had to be around. People caused pain. Purposely or accidentally. Friend is a meaningless concept, but I've learned to tag some as friends. There are people I'm comfortable around, there are people who don't irritate me (much), there are people who seem to understand what I blabber about. Do I have strict order in doing things? And do I get stressed or uncomfortable if I don't follow that order? Wait what? Of all the illogical questions... There's order in doing things always. Like what is the most efficient, the least effort, the most logical (socks before shoes! Undies before pants! Undress before shower! Make sammich before eating! Boil water before adding to cupnoodle!). Why in the world would you want to not follow the order you set yourself. So how do I know if it stresses me if I don't. Or well I would probably get very stressed by not following same patterns.
Questions about emotions, talks about feelings. Meaningless! Do I feel lonely? Maybe? Aren't we all lonely no matter with who we are? How can you be un-lonely? Happy, unhappy. States of mind. Reactions after or during events. Do I miss people? No. How can you miss people when you never have them? How can you regret something when you cannot undo. The past makes the present.
And losing track.